liar liar pants on fire

i feel so compelled to write what went down on Friday but somethings are best kept as a secret.

Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......

pictures does worth a thousand words........

and i managed to look retarded in everyone of them :)

ps:Sab,sorry for the purple hair,i went overboard

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which one do you prefer?
or both you dislike?

M this is for you,since you have artistic P.O.V

i'm not sure if i actually like these pictures,it bugs me somehow.

tze vizion iz not thze yet..not ballissma ..just uck.

hookies!move over famous amos!

my attempt in making a happy face
i failed.miserably.
hey,at least the I love U part turned out pretty swell,doesn't it?
don't hesitate pips it is actually edible and made out of 100 % non-toxic ingredients.
*courtesy of M's kitchen and the back of Kellogg's recipe table*,
it worked minus the 1st batch being a little bit chewy and limp.

We now have proven that you can trust those recipes. being the skeptic that i am,i now beamed with satisfaction after a day of slaving in M's hot kitchen playing baking with the tards and syasya.

yurp.

a day planed out as MCR-The Black Parade Is Dead dvd marathon turned out to be a fun-filled evening of Tae-Yong ogled and goggled fest cramped in with a baking session with our 'lil' pastry chef expert Tella Stella aka Tina yusof.

her baking philosophy is "get down,get dirtay,we're making some cookies,get dawn,get dirtay!"

there's a vid of that but it took to long to post!

not to mentioned M's attempted or shall i say forceful behavior in making a B-shaped cookie intribute to her love and affection at the moment "Big Bang".

you'll be the judge of that!looks like an eight to me rather than B to me. *coughed + chuckled*

this best described with pictures

fuh!massive picture uploads!
for M,easier to past around my pictures now that i know blogspot can save pictures,though in the future i should be more wary of the pictures i will be posting yeh?

don't want any mishaps and drama now would we?

btw the "hookies" syasya is holding is made by the oh-so swooned Tina,intribute to her new and i dare say eye candy heartthrob Tae-Yong. *snickers*
T-shaped cookie that looks NOTHING like a T.

well screw that some one actually squealed and did a lil jump went she realized her name has the same 1st letter as her newest drool factor!

T-ina...Tae-Young....this made M squirmed.

there,the longest ACTUAL post i've made since i've signed up for this.

Oi you!

PICTURE OF THE WEEK!month maybe since i haven't been using my camera as often as i used to. Supaaa M doing her thing,just always a natural. it looks like she's actually laughing in this doesn't she?that's the best part about it.

ouh the pink fury thing is like a small pillow for arm given by morita-chan to me last year for my birthday.

=)
serious was never our middle name =)

this week was kinda good actually, met Sabrina last night and talked endlessly about her so-called "love life" and got more than i've expected though.
word is, PARAMORE might be coming here at the end of the year!
speculations and rumours are the best i tell you because they usually are true. just thinking positive.

i've made a will to stalk Hayley williams when if she ever comes here. tina is with me on this. my partner in crime as always.

tina gave me a bunch of her mixed CD so i've been indulging myself on those.also found some of my old mixed CD that totally got me tapping while i genuinely try to sleep which you probably will know resolving into me getting only 1 1/2 hour of sleep. whoop-de-do there!

so here's my songs of the week,not in order but each meant a lot to me.

heaven help us-MCR
woah-paramore
brother of the mayor of bridgewater-world inferno friendship society
me and mia-ted leo and the pharmacist
love sick melody-paramore
cute without the e-taking back sunday
i caught fire-the used
buried myself alive-the used
beating heart baby-head automatica
waiting on the world to change-john mayer
hey jude-the beatles


well mostly anything by the beatles, WIFS,MCR,paramore and listening to old songs that used to make my eyes go all awed and my fat ass dancing can make my day.
just kinda going back to somewhere you had done your growing up in and finding that the old cafe you spent time lounging around with some of your best buds just totally inspiring each other while the rest of your peer hanged out in the mall, still standing and serving the best apple crumble ever in your life.because even others had moved on into different interest, the ambiance of the place reminded you of what was....it helps too, to see that the little doodle on the wall had everyone else's including yours wacky notes and signature.


yah that's how listening to mixed CD feels like.

just pure bliss and at ease


off now and starts cramming my head with more educational stuff that's supposedly will determine my future.
*snorts *

step-up

i miss photography with a capital M.
love this picture to bits, the way it turned out just exceeds my expectations!
that was my first time using film and i think i nailed it. maybe not every frame i i really got a few shots that i will treasure not just because of the quality but the story behind those pictures.

this year i realized as much as Allah threw me into the pits with the whole dad getting maried to another,mum looks defeated, friends being immature and SPM i fortunately have my cousins to look forward too. i've never thought in anytime soon that i will be a family person.
seriously that's like a punch-line.
"irah thinks family is number one!!",
now i'll be just like the people that said that and make that expression of how important family is.

this year, THEY changed my life.
before it was photography,the year before that was friends and music.

90 days pulse till SPM,
i don't really think i am ready but i'm getting there, i'm happy with myself these days that even the worst turbulence head my wouldn't keep in from falling.

odd how things had changed when you put your mind into it.
things seems a whole lot better somehow

you,me and this

sometimes keeping a distance is the best way to over-come anger, count your numbers and back away from it.

i remember that fight we had where i almost had my fist buried in her skinny jaw so she would shut up. i think that's the most violent i've ever been towards another, seen reconciling with my sis involving the door incident. leaving without a door was quiet disturbing but i've managed. maybe that's what we need now, for everyone to come clean.
no more talking shit behind any of our backs, no more remarks and no more ignorance.
but that is just it!
there's always a glitch in communication between one person to the other, i've seen it around. i've tried to avoid them but being a human i make them anyways.
so what now?


so now, i wonder if what we have will just end with a bit of mockery and a fistful of anger?



song for this and for today, 8/8/08

No doubt-dont speak.


i'm listening to them for 2 weeks now,missed the old days i that was never in.

don't lose yourself!

so of the week..........
*drumrolls please!*

running by no doubt.

just says it all,i sleep with this song every night this week.

i can say some people i've met kept saying "i don't believe in the term bestfriends", well screw that thought girls!

by saying that you don't trust anyone at all, then you start thinking people hate you just because they don't smile to you or something, the fact that some people don't give others any chance to get to know them saddens me.
okay not really, i just think they are these skeptic fart that couldnt be a bit optimistic about others, hey i know i have my issues with writing about more personal stuff but that's partly different because this is the interwebz!
lurkers are everywhere, and i shall say this....never ever underestimate the power of THE NET.

that aside,

for me friendship means the world to me, i love my friends i hate them too but i know that if i want to make it work it will. its just truly about how to approach things and being patient and being assertive but kind all at the same time. have that kind of relationship really makes you grow as human as well as mold you into being yourself.

i think that in time its not really who you pick as your friends...but who you are really?
get me?
like if you can be with the most popular kids in your school or opposite it's about you yourself carrying that uniqueness within those group of friends or i can say cliques?

for me the obstacles that been thrown at me kept me want to work for it!
there has been trust issues that involves tears and rain, envy that has anger rolled of your backs and "creative differences " that lurched you into combat mode in protecting the things you love.

all the shenanigans i will look forward too in the future.

as usual i will go off-topic and make your head spin until i'm not even sure what's the point other than i really love that song and video clip.

it's the rock steady vibe babeh!
what else lah

just realized.

that people actually use blogs to write about things in their lives, like a daily journal and what not.

i'm really bad at this, i couldnt tell you the stuff that really goes under this thick skin of mine because i actually thinks people read it like my sister,which have a loudmouth of telling people about my blog, i guess that makes me paranoid.

i like to be private. i don't want people to have something to use against me in the future, that is how paranoid i am!
i know that i definitely evolves in time, so what i say today might not what i will agree tomorrow.
don't get me wrong i'm not fickle minded,well occasionally yes but..i can honestly say that i'm a growing girl with a mind of it's own. we all are right?

or maybe i'm just the only one that have opening up issues.
like tina and her ridiculous glass bottle theory.
x_x

i'm not doing this blog any justice,i like writing in actual books and journals again these days :)
since i was 14 i have this journal that i've filled it with total nuisance and scribbles of unsatisfied feeling. i hate it if someone read it so i scribble, only people around me and my teachers knows how "creative" my writing is!

i need a new journal, and definitely not a mole skin,
what a fad lah!
that's another issue i will touch on when i feel compel to tell.