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at one point in your life you will feel totally drained of inspirations and outputs of life.
well,
thankfully thats not where i am right now,
when you started to see this visions in your head of how things could be and how to makes things become more than they are, it thrilled you so much but at the same time it makes you rather addicted to that certain idea.
for example of getting how things are done, to get that one single frame of idea across so it can stop bugging you at the back of your mind.

like this uncontrollable feeling of wanting where it all have to hang out there, when you know you have to do it and drop everything else just for the sake of getting it right.

that feeling had gotten control of my life.