before i sleep i just

want to say how tonight made me realized how difficult it is to love. and i dont mean love your friends or your family kind of love. i meant the love that every one of us seek. you know, having a lover yet a friend combo love. people tend to forget that the two go hand in hand. sometimes they love just to fill the lonely boring nights but never feeling anything beyond momentarily excitement or love because everyone else is in a relationship so its only natural to be in it themselves.

However, right now i dont want to talk what went wrong. despite the many blunders, i feel that it is important for me to write about went right. even if it is only one right turning, it is the most vital one. mainly,a reminder to myself to look on the bright side.

now i know when it comes to love;

1) go with what you heart says- it knows best

2) follow your intuitions-if it is right you just know

3) dont play games- unless you enjoy the drama

4) be yourself - better he sees you for who you are now then later

5) respect yourself - dont ever do things you feel uncomfortable doing

6) respect that person - the point of loving some one is not to make another you

7) be brave - making the first move can be so daunting

8) stop over thinking too much - in other words stop making assumptions!

you've read something similar in some magazine but im writing based on my own revelation. i want to write more but im dead beat and the sun is rising soon, i need to find my bed and crawl under the covers and hit the lights and switch off my mind.

maybe later today when i've reflect fully on the even that already, is and will happen.

what im saying probably doesnt add up because these are the my chunks of thoughts and i cant seem to be able to make them connect together properly right at this moment.