its here!!

I am feeling loads better! Listening to mumford and sons,writing that letter to myself and crying it out really made me feel better. I will start my internship on Monday, I feel strong. I know I will do good.I don't care if that sounds really cocky. I am a cocky cock and I am not sorry about it one single bit. If my words backfired on me in the future, at least I have something new to learn. I am excited actually to meet my students and work with other teachers. I'm sure this comes as no surprise, but I love to work. Sure,I really do need the money but I find real satisfaction in getting a job done and learning something new about myself, the people around me and skills that comes with the title.

My dad asked me what are my expectations from this internship and I didn't really know what to answer him. Honestly? I just want to learn about this profession. I want to be really good at it. I want to love english more. I want to impart good life lessons to those kids. I want to let them discover how wonderful other languages can be when they keep an open mind.

I hope I do good. I can't wait what my life will be for the next 3 months. Kids are wonderful, I know I have expressed how annoying they are, but you should also remember how I've countless time said how amazing they are due to their honest take and positive take in life.

I hope I get to discover more about myself through them for I am already an adult that always seem to get lost by the fine details of life and fail to see the big picture.

Insyallah. Amin.

I thought that I was going to buy a new journal and write about my experience about my journey as a trainee teacher for the next 3 months but why bother making empty promises when I feel much more easier typing it out here. So do you think I should make a daily entry of my experience? oh hell,why not? Best keep it in the open and share my stories where anyone can stumble upon right? I want to be braver when it comes to my writing and sharing it with anyone that wants to read my babbles. Writing is the only way I know how to make things better when times are hard and I know it is not always rainbows and cupcakes.

So,fuck it.bite the bullets and commit Irah!