i am ecstatic and fantastic!

that most of my friends are updating their blog again!thank you lovelies!

sometimes you couldn't help finding joy in the most simplest things

geek talk,can you handle it??

that is in Carpathian

not many folks know this but i love fantasy books.
you know, the whole book where they have their own ancient language mixing it with contemporary times setting just makes me want to jump into the book and never leave those characters even during a deadly war!
especially if there is a weave of magic running through the plot, which totally enthralls my imagination!
granted, MOST of them have the element of romance in it, but there was this one book i've read during form5 that looks intimidating with its thick volume and quite frankly not capturing cover comparing with other books among its genre.
then, as i was reading the book, ive just realize that there is no in depth heated scenes!
*gulp*
i thought to myself, this is going to be hard to stomach down since i have the 2nd book stacked nicely on my desk waiting to be read.

so ive just muddled through but was hit by a wave of excitement as the plot thickens!
needless to say,i've read all 3 volumes with as much vigor as ive read harry potter.

last week*YES DURING EXAM WEEK*, i couldnt resist the book hanis gave me and devour it instantly. it was a book about carpathian people with language and history incerpt in it!!!!!

you betchaa i've memorized a few words, im a geek,i know.
hey, do you know it is not made up?? they are real, the people aand language. pretty amazing huh. but, i think my favourite would always be learning Gealic.

the point is, im always in search for new books, especially fantasy/paranormal,keep me posted on that if you can.

I SEE YOU

my imagery was heighten after watching Avatar. i felt like my mind was pulled into a world that is harlequin beyond my imagination!my eyes were dancing with the refelction of the motion picture reeling grandurely infront of my eyes. it felt like a dream that is so lucid due to the combination of captivating visual images and melodious auditory working simultaneously evoking emotions that had left me in awed, empathy and in sync with the world that was new to me.

but there was this moment during the movie i was thinking that wouldnt it be cool if i get my own avatar and live among the navi, with their lean and muscular (though they could have work on a little more boob) body and thought i would look like a blue shrek instead!!

the last post

sorry
i dont know who gave me the license to put a gun to your head and made you choose.

i just wanted you to take the wheel in your life instead of being in the backseat, so i've let irritation get the best of me.

mental note:i can be a really harsh sometimes, need to work on that.

neyo said it right*grunts*

do not go to bed angry and horny

-
gruntsssss

what he said

Remain orderly in your life so you can remain free and chaotic in your work. - Thom Yorke

i know, i know, two post within an hour. hey, i just want to share.
tak bleh ke??
credit goes to Jason Mraz though, go read his blog about new year.I'm sure it will leave you fueling with determination to make this year a much more full-filling year.
-irah

calling ghostbusters!

I've found that on tumblr and i just laughed instinctively without feign interest . see.. that is what my life have veered to lately.

i use tumblr as a substitute for my friends.
that is why i am NOT ashamed to tell you that i've been watching sisterhood of the traveling pants twice this week because i feel that void in my heart that can not be fill (just yet) by anythingelse except the presences of my best mates, exchanging jokes and sexual inneundos with each other.

bah, that's why im so greatful for the power of technology. the boundaries are limitless these days.

this is what ive been longing for lately.....
a drive along a quiet scenic road with my friends in the backseat talking incoherently to each other while i just soak in the oxymoron of an ambience that i find comforting.but im merely wool-gathering of course
-irah

please dont stare

my eyes are bloodshot, my throat feels dry and my nose is positively irritated by my own scent!
i think im going to burn out by sunset and there's nothing either you or i can do about it, this is the life of a university student that is NOT exaggerated.

all i can think about is getting through this assignment and pass out after that.

-Irah

bye bye 2009!hellooo 2010

Sometimes our visions falter and withered to endless days of utter nothingness that we constantly try to make the best off. I wonder if this what the end feels like. Well not really. I just contemplate about my failed attempts to make my vision follow through. Days that feels like an abyss stretches into milliseconds seems to deteriorates my will to hold on. Swept away by this emotion I had swindled myself with lies because the truth was still too raw and jagged around the edges that I couldn’t stand to face it myself.

Yes, the truth hurts.

You just have to buckle on your knees and sob right away the minute you learn it. Not a tragedy but more of a passing………….

Irah,

Blog n whatnot on January 09

I’m getting all teary eye reading the blog post I was meant to post a year ago but didn’t after all because 09 just whizzed by like a bullet train that I didn’t have much time to come around it and probably have forgotten about it after I’ve wrote it. There are so many blog post in my ms word which were meant to be posted on here but didn’t make it due to my lack of commitment towards blogging and sometimes I just write to vent out my anger or sooth my heart on a matter that is rather intangible during trying times…….which I’m now rather glad I didn’t because I tend to write with emotions that will overwhelmed anyone that reads it…hehehe, though I’m regretting a few post I’ve posted about a certain infatuation of mine. Yes, I know life should never be with regrets, but when I think back about the things I’ve said or done, it’s better to take a step back and ponder on the matter thoughtfully and let go or try to improve yourself for the future! After all, isn’t that what life is about? Evolving yourself to be something better than before. It’s not about getting somewhere at a certain point, but about constantly self checking yourself every now and again.

That’s what I’ve learnt last year through the people that were gracious enough to let me be a part of their lives with wide open arms and even gargantuan hearts. I am deeply thankful for what I have and feel determine to make up of what I lack because of the support followed by sage anecdote they have instilled in my head and heart. I’m always taking in the good and tossing away the bad because I don’t want to be a cynical sorry fuck that thinks the world is a dark place which bleeds all the damn time. I wanna fuking live my life. although…I have to admit that lately I’ve been missing the simpler days of high school where you only think about passing the next big exam and exceeding the teachers expectations towards you and sleeping in the afternoon on a balmy afternoon til your head spins when you were jolted from your reverie by your mum’s nagging about the effects of sleeping during that time or the 6 hours a day where you get to see your mates face five days a week rather than seeing them once a month….which I think is the MOST challenging bit of 09 that I have to endure.

God, growing up is so……………….lonely sometimes.

However, being a part makes us want to be there for each other more in a way that we have never appreciated when we were in high school. I’ve finally understood what the idiom “absence makes the heart grows fonder” really means. Even though, growing up makes me want to hark back to the frenzy days of the three cheers my chem and dance in the dark with my best friend (little sister included), things are better now…in a few ways. I wasn’t that girl that suffers from the delusion of animosity, I am now the girl that strives from the adversity and a cunning smile plastered on my chubby face even when I am beaten down tasting the dirt in my mouth. Life is hard, but it is harder when you prefer to let it drown you out until you can’t even find yourself.

It was also a year where I’ve found the courage to step out of my shell and make merry with the outside world that is beyond my family and usual set of friends. I really think I’ve made some new ones this year that I will consider a friend for a long time, you know who you are ;D, lets not name, names now.

So after that hullabaloo on the year was, let me give you a brief conclusion on how 2010 is looking out through my magic globe;

I would want it to be a year of finding new things through my studies, have an epiphany about teaching, trying more new things that will keep me enthusiastic about life and living out my dreams one step at a time.

- irah, 2 jan 2010