"the truth is,i'm a bad person"

lets stop trying to beat the norm.
that's the punchline.

full stop.

oh btw,Trainspotting was unbelievably bold, outrageous and spilling with some good ol Scottish wit! A story that had been told in the best way possible without drowning it's sense of humanity,humor and reality. Heroin never looked so interesting mixed with the thick Scottish accent and smart dialogs about a controversial subject that's killing our mind,body and soul.
It's gritty and raw but appealing and entertaining.For me, i just wanted to know how is this madness going to end!
A tale of the euphoria of drugs and it's risk kept my eye glued to the screen.A harsh reality but we've got to face it right?

Also it's base on a book written by Irvine Welsh in 1993, a great cult hit.you know where i'm going with this right? Irvine Welsh is the same man who wrote Ecstasy:Three Tales of Chemical Romance.

that's where MCR got their name.





;)

now i'm waiting the chance to upload "into the wild"

she shines so bright!

you see,when i feel i need a little swing and some lifting up, i can always count on my british boys to make things "suu much batte-er"


and besides i live for punk movements.
those jagged twisted words of their songs couldnt come close to their meaning.Just in your face kinda of songs that never ceases to amaze you. the frontman is their leader whether you like it or not, you might call them a fagg for wearing tight pants even your momma can't fit in them, or maybe you but they brought it all at the center stage when the lights lid up and the crowds hold their breath for that one last scream. scream for euphoria! he said,scream for the dead!he said and one last scream for our broken dreams.make the earth rumbles beneath your doc martins and hi tops!nothing can beat us when we screamed for more and pumped our fists in the air in unison like a bunch of protestants infused with rage and anger.

checking out:

little man tate
Joy division
Bat for lashes

the last is worth checking out.But i dont think it'll suffice for me.I have to listen to it a few times and grow into it to say i love it.that goes the same to joy division too. even though its quiet well known among the punk movement back in 1979, i guess some things doesn't always fits the ears of the new generation like me.For little man tate, not bad at all. i'm not trying to be a music know it all but i'm a new listener to its music and i love the obscene lyrics that tells you a tale of boys and their minds with beer in their hands.Just one of the stories you can relate to,maybe?


i think i should have my own musical blog just dedicated to new music and old. To appriciate and
widen mind knowledge and most of all to move on. Well,maybe not move on entirely but be less biased of the new talented acts that have the same dreams of being heard through their tunes.I should be more open to listening new music. so that's probably what's that blog is going to be about.

so thoughts and takes on music i've came across or probably just glorifying my favourite musicians in more literal way.

ouh wait,as im writing this i've finally came around checking that movie trainspotting gerard once mentioned in murder dvd. i couldnt really catch what he was saying since i'm daff at time and have difficulty understand his jersey accent.

i have to say THIS LOOKS LIKE A WICKED MOVIE!!!

now,i'm also thinking of my own movie blog. My love for donnie darko and almost famous just seeps through your scull if you ever mention it in a conversation with me.

for now;
check this schomosome of a movie:





the soundtracks you say?
checking out as i speak or write.

"the call my dear",its for you

5 months down.

hmmm,I am ready now.not in the sense educationally but more mentally.

i feel better in some weird way.
like away from school and from my friends makes me misses them and thankful of them more?

i guess absences does makes the heart fonder.

BUT

i know we'll be agitated by each others behavior once the we start talking about music,our uninteresting school break and narnia.
except for melun,she'll be yapping away about BB and i'll listen cause she sounds happy. I'm glad she is.With the shit she has to constantly put up with at home, i feel like i need to save her from their mental abuse. She's already fragile and they're killing every ounce of her hope and dreams.

These are the things Allah swt throws at us and we certainly determine to make through these obstacles as human as possible.

do you get that feeling that when you're going through this thick soul seeping fog, that you're scared that you might loose yourselves or the people you have? or maybe both...........

that's our fear, its so crippling that it had paralyzed you in that same spot for years.But, you know, i know for a fact that "we are who we are" not our parents.
so fear not!
:)