the last straw

im over it.
this four letter word that only had only brought me tears and endless confusions.
i came to a realization that im not being myself lately, i need a little spring in my steps and blithe ignorance about the world.
thanks hazelnuts for the new tunes, i needed that :)

damn boy

i am not walking right during the day because my head is fill with him at every nook and cranny that it gave me little room for anything else.i have this mini flashes of the past,present and future of us that it burns my mind slowly seeping into my vein making my eyes go all hazy due to the abundance amount of wishful thinking i've pilled up as high as the taipei 101. is this love? is this like? what is this? it doesnt want to reveal itself to me because watching my soul writhe is the most entertaining thing yet...

cant we hold hands and not fuck each other senseless?

There are always that boundary sayang, i just want to laugh and dance with you until my jaw hurts and my hips can no longer sway to the rhythm of our hearts when we are together. I rather make long-lasting memories with you rather than getting tangle in petty love affair that would only kill both our hearts that are not ready to take this on yet. I think you are one lovely soul that just doesn’t know yet how beautiful you are and i don’t want my broken one to damage yours. mine needs some time to embrace this good thing i have for this eyes, this hands and this feet are made for the worst...when a good thing such as you come her way she just don’t know what to make of it.

you give me nothing

How do we keep convincing ourselves that some people are different is beyond me! When they end up disappointing you in the end by being just like every other knuckle headed, stereotypical mind fucker you’ve been dealing with all your life. I don’t know what compelled me to think that you are any different than the others made me feel like a total douche-bag. please open you eyes for i am tired to see the world for you, my eyes are bloodshot and strained from all the filth you've made me watch. i'm just about as ready as i can be to leave everything i have so i can distance myself from the likes of you. when will you learn that conventional and normal is the best combination for a life full of disappointments? after a millionth heart-break i guess...then so be it!because i am not the fool this time around.

we are jaded no more

Imagination will often carry us to worlds that never were. But without it we go nowhere.
Carl Sagan

tonight i close my eyes and see my life in every shade of colours existed in this world. while i was living my eyes close, i saw you doing the same so i wouldnt feel so alone in this world of harlequin madness smashing and tumbling against each other like round globules containing paints going at each other like drunks falling into each others laps and feet. we wonder this nonsensical world with open heart instead of eyes.........and we saw something that left us gawking at it for hours...we are jaded no more.

-Irah

the capitalist strikes again

I’ve simply been standing up to live rather than sitting down to write about my life. this passed few months has been somewhat like a whirlwind. I have been going on this non-stop train to somewhere only god knows. I’m still on it and i dont want to stop. Actually i dont know how to stop it. A few days ago i’ve came to a realization that we are just a pawn in the game that they have forced us to play. I wonder if anyone ever made it out of this train alive...