a year later

it has been a year since my last hit and here i am again in the same place but a different position. when will this pain go away? another one year? maybe two? god save me from myself for i need courage to get through today and the next so i wouldnt fall apart at the seams.

so many questions, but no answers. therefore, i was left to scour my brain for the answers and came back empty handed. how my chest rise and fall slowly in a steady motion of an ocean wave whenever i think of him.

this not a love song, this is my truest form of self expression about my feelings at the moment, please drink it in and enjoy its bits and pieces preciously for my heart is in need of a good thing.