breathe

being brave is an act.feeling brave is the only true reality.tonight i dont think i'll ever turn back.-Irah

my short-lived love life

Suddenly out of nowhere all those love songs you’ve been mindlessly listening to for ages seem to actually make senses. How cruel is life to hit you with its worst when you are already feeling the hopelessness love brings along after the quick happiness it gave you. I’m caving myself in this week,i need some time to think about what happened and moved on. Its so hard to not think of the little moments we had and go swooning away like a child getting that last piece of candy. i’m going to be honest with you, the first time i saw him my mind went like a sudden shocked, there was a moment when our eyes met. After that i didn’t forget him. I’m going to stop myself here because this starting to feels like a pathetic love story that didn’t make it to the big screen caused it didn’t have a happy ending.

F5

i had 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep today for the first time in 3 days!

a year later

it has been a year since my last hit and here i am again in the same place but a different position. when will this pain go away? another one year? maybe two? god save me from myself for i need courage to get through today and the next so i wouldnt fall apart at the seams.

so many questions, but no answers. therefore, i was left to scour my brain for the answers and came back empty handed. how my chest rise and fall slowly in a steady motion of an ocean wave whenever i think of him.

this not a love song, this is my truest form of self expression about my feelings at the moment, please drink it in and enjoy its bits and pieces preciously for my heart is in need of a good thing.