we are jaded no more

Imagination will often carry us to worlds that never were. But without it we go nowhere.
Carl Sagan

tonight i close my eyes and see my life in every shade of colours existed in this world. while i was living my eyes close, i saw you doing the same so i wouldnt feel so alone in this world of harlequin madness smashing and tumbling against each other like round globules containing paints going at each other like drunks falling into each others laps and feet. we wonder this nonsensical world with open heart instead of eyes.........and we saw something that left us gawking at it for hours...we are jaded no more.

-Irah

the capitalist strikes again

I’ve simply been standing up to live rather than sitting down to write about my life. this passed few months has been somewhat like a whirlwind. I have been going on this non-stop train to somewhere only god knows. I’m still on it and i dont want to stop. Actually i dont know how to stop it. A few days ago i’ve came to a realization that we are just a pawn in the game that they have forced us to play. I wonder if anyone ever made it out of this train alive...

breathe

being brave is an act.feeling brave is the only true reality.tonight i dont think i'll ever turn back.-Irah

my short-lived love life

Suddenly out of nowhere all those love songs you’ve been mindlessly listening to for ages seem to actually make senses. How cruel is life to hit you with its worst when you are already feeling the hopelessness love brings along after the quick happiness it gave you. I’m caving myself in this week,i need some time to think about what happened and moved on. Its so hard to not think of the little moments we had and go swooning away like a child getting that last piece of candy. i’m going to be honest with you, the first time i saw him my mind went like a sudden shocked, there was a moment when our eyes met. After that i didn’t forget him. I’m going to stop myself here because this starting to feels like a pathetic love story that didn’t make it to the big screen caused it didn’t have a happy ending.

F5

i had 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep today for the first time in 3 days!

a year later

it has been a year since my last hit and here i am again in the same place but a different position. when will this pain go away? another one year? maybe two? god save me from myself for i need courage to get through today and the next so i wouldnt fall apart at the seams.

so many questions, but no answers. therefore, i was left to scour my brain for the answers and came back empty handed. how my chest rise and fall slowly in a steady motion of an ocean wave whenever i think of him.

this not a love song, this is my truest form of self expression about my feelings at the moment, please drink it in and enjoy its bits and pieces preciously for my heart is in need of a good thing.

blase

I'm contemplating whether i should even put that as the title.

Have you ever wonder wouldn't it be cool that something fictional that you've read could be true? pardon me but movies are not include in this because they have be nothing but a disappointment when portraying a book. what i am talking about is, real life occurrence!

i know i sound like a loony up to this point but 3 days ago, while i was hanging out at hanis's house giving her a rogue-inspired highlight, i happened to wonder over her shelf which is packed with books and since i've been dying to read a new book after putting down elizibeth gilbert's EAT,PRAY,LOVE, i am ecstatic to coincidentally came upon this book called "the end of mr.y".

suffice to say that after a few pages i COULD NOT put it down.i've spent two days reading it because i'm savoring every bit of it but had to reluctantly pull away from it because of the examination so right now, i just cant wait to dive back into the land of mind space with Ariel Monta.

Have you read RANT by Chuck Phalanuik? well, it has the same feeling of excitement, mind boggling and far-fetch moments which has a lot of idealistic and realistic element in it. they just intertwine with each other fittingly that it is a sweet ride to be on.
basically, it has time-travelling, literature, science, sex and religion all blend into one!
i have a thing for all ( except the science part but she made it work!).

plus, it was written by a woman!(well,i real hope it wasnt an alias or something)